Everyone says that your first month or two is always the hardest. Either we got the best baby their is or they just arent doing something right. Rylee has been so good, I'm scared for our second one. (Way down the road) She eats like she should and sleeps really good.
Having a daughter is the best feeling in the world. Don't really know how to explain the love that we have for her. Also it has made our love for each other grow alot stronger, witch I didnt even know was possiable. I am so greatfull to have John as our daughters father. He is absoultly amazing with her. I can see it in his eyes how much he loves her and I.
Rylee had her first major holiday this past weekend. The fourth of July. We went to the car show and hung out with family friends for awhile before daddy got off work and was able to show up. I rode in Uncle Daves car with him in the parade. That ment John sat out with Rylee. He said she slept the hole parade until Uncle Dave and I got in front of them and reved up the motor. Then she woke up and smiled and fell back asleep! It's amazing the smarts babies have.
As I watch her get bigger and bigger it saddens me. I of all people know that a baby will never need their parents more in life than right now. As she sleeps sometimes I just sit there and stare at her and wonder what she will be in life. I want the very best for her and it saddens me that I will have to share parts of my life with her down the road and hope she isnt disappointed in me. I just hope that she will always know that her dad and I love her sooo very much and nothing can change that.
Its amazing once you have a child that you have a piece of your heart outside of your body. Little things that people do have never bugged me as much as they do now. Also this past month I have had to say good bye to a few "friends" who just don't understand that I am a mom now, and I can't just get up and go and do things on a dime. I know someday they will eventually understand.
Our first month has also been full of surprises. Rylee is such a strong little girl. She holds her head up all on her own. We arent talking for a few seconds we are talking five minutes or so. Also she has rolled over twice and gets very frustrated when she can not get all the way over. She is pretty much sleeping threw the night already. She usually just wakes up around 1 or so. I am so thankful. We left her with grandma and grandpa Bruce for about three or four hours last week. Oh my goodness that was super hard! She was in the back of my head the whole time! Dogs have warmed up to her and just love her. Well I guess I better be getting off here. Papa should be home soon!
